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Read the Provinces: Chris Eaton
Chris Eaton’s Symphony No. 3 (Book*hug Press) began as a ‘fake’ book, but what it became was a decadent elegy for a prodigious composer’s lost love. Chris joins us in this ALU Reads the Provinces interview to share more about how the book developed out of a conspiracy theory and the underlying sense of ‘New Brunswickness’ that unconsciously creeps into his writing, notably emerging as a subtle Chiac blending of french and english.
FROM SYMPHONY NO. 3
Scherzo I enjoy books about grief, said the heiress; imagine Frankenstein, she said, not as the tale of a monster, she said, or of fear, she said, but as the story of Elizabeth, dealing with the death of her mother. No one cares about the monster, she said. No one ever writes a story about a monster. Imagine Elizabeth never having a mother, though, never knowing a mother, always loving a mother. What is it like to live without a mother? Or worse, to know that you killed her? What is it like to feel responsible for a person not being there? Especially for a person who has never been there? At least for you. To know that you forced yourself from her and tore and clawed and clawed and tore and gasped and writhed and cried and gasped and never even noticed she was there until you did, and then she wasn’t. You noticed she was there (or wasn’t) and felt empty and longing for something you never had, missed something you never had, never understood, could never understand, missed a gap, a lack where once was wonderful, because you didn’t have the time to notice what she was or why she was there or even that she was. Until it was too late. Imagine looking at the other mothers, the heiress said. Imagine hearing the word mother and each time hearing the word mother being reminded of the no mother, the lack of tender caresses and fortitude and benignity. Imagine becoming a woman, she said, then falling in love, and wanting to be that thing she never had. With Victor, of all people! Whose mother she also killed! And when she discovered that she couldn’t? When the doctor said: I’m sorry? And when she knew exactly what the doctor meant, though he didn’t say her name or I’m sorry for what, just: I’m sorry, like somehow he had struck her inadvertently and somehow these words were going to make it feel better, to replace not being able to provide life, to replace the no mother, losing a mother that was never there and then also a child, a no child? Somehow this man who always carried a bag thought he could fix it all with: I’m sorry. How many apologies does he have in that bag? she must have thought to herself. And: What else does he have in there? Condolences? Platitudes? Can words ever fix anything? Sometimes you learn to accept. Life is one long lesson in acceptance. But could you accept that?She’d already lost them at this point, however, all of them staring out the window at the bay, and the ship, and the bay (and the ship) seemed unmoving, idle, unreal, as a painted ship upon a painted ocean. The wind was, on a typical day, exemplary; not uncomfortable for sunning, of course, but perfect for sailing, or kite flying, or reducing the temperature. It was crucial to the success of a seaside resort, as anyone knew, that the gusts never outnumber the guests. But here it was—the ship, or the wind, or even the bay—forcing its presence with inaction rather than action. And the factory owner whose name was Tudesq said, profoundly: Despair has its own calms. And the Wife of Chaline said, desperately: Has anyone ever died here? And they looked at each other as if surely it were only a matter of odds and that the longer any of them stayed, here on the beach, staring at the ship, the better their chances that they would be the next. They held their children close and their wallets closer and the concierge sent someone in a rowboat to the ship to retrieve a man and his trunks and a servant who was an Arab. And the man fingered the exotic flowers in the lobby and muttered, barely audibly, that they were too dry. And the man wiped a long finger cross the long counter, and rubbed the dust to nothing. And the man kept tapping the bell deliberately though the concierge was right in front of him, deliberately. La-la… La-la-la-laaaaaa… The concierge tried to rush him through the process of signing in because the crowd was gathering. And the man, whose accent was clearly not Dutch, said: I am Dutch. And the man, whose hands were clearly not those of a diamond merchant, said: I am a diamond merchant. And he asked for a private cabin, as far from any of the other guests as possible, with three bedrooms though it was only him and his servant (the Arab) and the trunks. And he asked for a private cabin not facing the bay, as was popular, and more expensive, but open to the mountains. And everyone was already talking. And he signed his name: Charles Sannois. And everyone was already talking.* * *Chris Eaton is the author of three previous novels, including Chris Eaton, a Biography (Book*hug, 2013), selected as one of the Books of the Year by Quill and Quire and the Toronto Star. He spent many years making music in the band Rock Plaza Central. He currently lives in Sackville, New Brunswick, with his partner and two children.* * *Purchase a copy of Symphony No. 3 for 15% OFF until January 31, and stay tuned for more Read the Provinces featured authors all month long here on All Lit Up. Follow us on Twitter, Facebook, and Instagram with the hashtag #ALUreadtheprovinces.