Excerpt from This Wicked Tongue
If I moved my head, the air turned dark and blurred my breathing and I felt sick, bad sick.
It was the middle of the day in the middle of July, mid-desert. If we ran the AC, the car overheated. If we drove over sixty, the car overheated.
Are you drinking enough? he said. I told you, keep drinking.
I couldn’t — the water hot as tar. I gave myself up. Whatever happens, I said silently, careful not to move my lips. Better believe I’m yours.
But I faced forward, the better to behold the black and white in front of me. What a world. It was like the heat gave me X-ray vision. A bus breached past, air-conditioned — I could tell because the windows looked sealed and inside people chatted and played cards, ignoring the nothing outside. Twenty minutes later we passed the bus pulled over on the interstate shoulder, engine smoking, suckahs. We snailed on until a stray palm snaked into view — better believe I kept my eyes open — and then an exit, Indio, a gas station where we could fill up and a café where we could eat.
Partway through my burrito I wobbled to the bathroom, thinking I should after all this time. No pee came. My underwear, stretched between my knees, webbed with lines of salt. So much in me.
I flushed though I didn’t have to and struggled to do myself back up. I splashed water on my face. I opened the door to the tiny bathroom. The café wasn’t like what I thought a café should be, candles on the tables and music playing, him facing me.
I moved nearer. His plate lay at his elbow, and by his lowered head and bobbing shoulders it seemed he’d started on mine. Mr. Skinny. I never knew where he put it — bags of corn chips and plastic-wrapped hot dogs and subs, jewel-boxed Krispies washed down with Supersizees, and starting in Oklahoma the biscuits and gravy at Mickey Dee’s. And still his bones left bruises on me each time we joined our hearts together. Always hungry. His thin brown hair matted to his head, sticking up in places like he’d slept in a ditch for a year. The rest of him a scarecrow fixed to poles. Or a scrap of torn plastic bag flapping in a field — I wondered was it ever filled with something, who it used to belong to.
But I loved him, yeah. I felt baggy myself from the drive, my skin too big and stretched over me like a waste of plastic wrap. And that blur so near it felt like any which way.
Dizzy and ditzy are not the same thing. I believe in signs and in knowing what I know despite what anybody tells me. Stubborn bitch, you’re so stupid. Or, Dummy. And those aren’t the worse.
Mostly I lay in the back all the way here, at first sleeping or pretending to, and then with my eyes staring at all I’d never seen before and not ashamed to admit it, once we were a long way from Ontari-ari-ari-o. So much sky, each moment different. When I sat, green hills, sands like the sea. He drove far into the night and I’d wake to pink licking the windows like a thousand wet puppies. I’d manage him apart from me and let myself out. Fog welling in the ditches. I’d walk a few steps and the haze would lift, as if I’d squeezed my last tears and could get on with things. Like a rest stop with clean bathrooms. Truck rigs neatly lined up. Men mostly, asleep. I never felt so safe. When I’d come back to the car and open the door, on my side there’d be food piled from the stash in the trunk, chips and chocolate bars grabbed in quick handfuls, whatever was most convenient at each station while I’d slept, only waking to the gunning engine and the over-lit midnight stores blown behind us like nuclear blooms in old movies — and then the grainy aftermaths of night forests, local roads.
In Indio, in a café where no music played, he chewed the burrito as if afraid it might escape. His shoulder blades were thin moons.
What could I say to draw him to me, or me to him? Most of the time words don’t mean a thing. They twist mean and not much to do with the truth.
PRAISE FOR THIS WICKED TONGUE
“It’s been a long wait for fans of Elise Levine’s delicious short stories. But the wait was well worth it. ..[This Wicked Tongue] delivers in spades. From the get-go, Levine demonstrates a boisterous command of language and an ability to seize the reader’s attention. ..her stories pry us open, revealing our secretly wounded places, finally acting as balm and salvation. Lucky us. ” —Toronto Star
“Sit back and let the language, distilled to its most pristine, wash over you with the force and effect of poetry. ” —Hamilton Review of Books
“Expertly crafted, impressively original, inherently riveting. ..very highly recommended. ” —Midwest Book Review
“Levine offers a vision and a language so poetically visceral and fiercely poignant—so uniquely intelligent—that story after story I was in awe of her courage and artistry. ” —Barbara Gowdy
"Edgy. ..convey[s] themes of yearning and loss. ..Levine demonstrates her ability as a wordsmith par excellence. " —Winnipeg Free Press
“Elise Levine writes with a new and exciting type of lyric rhythm. These are stories with the beating heart of poems. ” —Rion Amilcar Scott, winner of the 2017 PEN/Robert W. Bingham Prize for Debut Fiction
“Each story in This Wicked Tongue is powerful and vivid and packed with an emotional punch to the heart. ” —Quill & Quire (starred review)
“Elise Levine’s startling sentences alternate between serrated sentiment and lyrical reverie, offering readers that rarest commodity—genuine surprise. ” —Jeff Jackson, author of Destroy All Monsters
“Elise Levine uses language like a scalpel to cut to the nervy core of our inner life. There’s a restless desolation in these stories, perfectly poised against a wily, wry wit. This Wicked Tongue is wicked smart. ” —Dawn Raffel, The Strange Case of Dr. Couney
“Taut, musical sentences. ..a stylish, experimental collection. ” —Kirkus Reviews
“Levine shines, furnishing a mental space with language that juggles colloquial and classical vocabulary, complete with verbs that feel freshly minted. In other hands, such an inward turn might give rise to feelings of claustrophobia, but here one has the sense of a widening. ” —Literary Review of Canada
“Wonderfully dark, eerily atmospheric. ..sharp, smart, thoughtful, and rendered in Levine's customary powerhouse prose. ” —Open Book
PRAISE FOR ELISE LEVINE
“Reading Elise Levine is akin to a wild ride down a dark road at night. ..Bold and startling. ..Precipitous and exhilarating. ” —Globe and Mail
“As immersive, hyper-vivid and true as fiction ever gets. ” —Lisa Moore
“A dazzling wordsmith, a lexical tease, Levine is like a kid let loose in a leaf pile, kicking up words for the sheer joy of watching them spin. ” —Toronto Star
“A cutting-edge literary sensation. ” —NOW Magazine
“One of Canada’s finest fiction writers…Levine demonstrates a kind of incandescent knowing about human affairs which she deploys in stunningly nuanced passages…A sensitive, cagey dominatrix of literary form and human psychology. ” —George Elliott Clarke, Mail Star
“Audacious…There’s hardly a word in [these stories] that doesn’t weigh heavily, or doesn’t have a bristling edge to it. ” —Toronto Star
“Levine’s vivid language and unflinching exploration of people living on the edge of society will stay with you long after each story is read … Levine is unafraid to experiment with language, voice, and form. Her explorations of humanity and the adventurous spirit of her work will keep the reader hooked, hesitating to turn the page but unable to resist the pull of her prose. ” —St. John’s Evening Telegram
“Levine’s writing is adventurous and brave…Tautly constructed and rigorously controlled…” —Quill & Quire
“Levine is, undeniably, an outstanding wordsmith. Her writing style moves in multiple directions, making high stakes out of small movements while turning panic into poetry. ” —Winnipeg Review
“Taut and direct, Elise Levine’s writing compresses the distance between art and audience, drawing a reader experientially through her fiction. Levine is a visceral imagist. Her fiction renders event indistinguishable from emotion, affecting the gut as fully as the mind. ” —Ottawa Citizen
“Levine uses raw, hallucinatory prose to tell this curious story of a woman becoming undone…The novel’s visceral wordplay, rough sexuality, and anguished depiction of survivor’s guilt are bound to captivate its audience. A transgressive, gut-wrenching portrayal of grief that asks what it’s like to drown. ” —Kirkus Reviews
"Levine’s spare language works brilliantly to capture both the vastness of the open water and the claustrophobic chaos of underwater caverns [as well as] a heightened, stylized canvas for Marilyn’s addictive nature. ..The result is a tale of self-destruction and hubris. ..absolutely gripping. ” —Numero Cinq
“A vibrant mixture of intimate moments. ..Blue Field is an exploration of two selves coming together with the sea. Levine’s aquatic language is gorgeous, displaying her literary prowess. ” —THIS Magazine
“No reader can make his or her way through these stories and retain any kind of complacency. ” —Calgary Herald
“Reading the novel is a sensation akin to drifting weightlessly beneath the surface of the text. ..dazzling, textured, tightly woven. ” —Music and Literature
“Levine exposes the roughness and the crude pain of life. It’s a rare writer who can write bluntly about the raw side of life while subtly leaving room for her readers to make their own, often disturbing connections. ” —Books in Canada